Saturday, April 16, 2011

Anonymous Letter

I forgive myself and I am forgiven.

I forgive western medicine for helping my mother become and sustain being a drug addict. I forgive myself for being so angry for so long. I forgive the media for scaring people into submission, including my happy peaceful dad. I forgive all the unkind things ever said to me, and by me. I forgive myself for not feeling like I am good enough. I am willing to forgive humans for polluting and disrespecting this beautiful planet and ourselves. I forgive myself for any bad choices - I forgive myself inaction for for fear of making bad choices. I forgive conventional farmers for still dumping chemicals into the Earth and calling it food and 'not harmful.' I forgive humans for arrogantly thinking we know more than nature. I forgive myself for all the critical/judgemental and self loathing thoughts I've had about my body, my abilities and my life. I forgive myself for thinking about being attached to the pain of the past. I forgive myself for creating hypnotizing stories about tragedy, lack and fear. I forgive myself for believing them. I forgive myself for thinking judgemental thoughts about lesbians and gays. I forgive all the people, particularly the catholic church, for teaching me those beliefs. I forgive you mom for teaching me to hate myself and forcing me to defend myself from the earliest age. I forgive you for hating your life. I forgive you for being lazy and obbsessed with outer appearances. I forgive you for pitting all of us against each other. I forgive you for selling yourself for drugs. I forgive myself for being relieved when you passed away. I forgive myself for any unkind thing I ever said to you. I forgive you for telling me no one would ever love me. I forgive you for teaching me to expect the worst I forgive you for deliberately making us afraid all the time. I forgive you for wasting your life and causing so much pain and havoc in the family. I forgive you for mocching off Grampy, Shannon and anyone else ensnared by your lies. I forgive you for never telling the truth. I forgive you for not protecting me as a little girl. I forgive you for dumping all your emotional/ancestral baggage for me to heal. I forgive myself for signing on for that. I forgive myself for being stubborn. I forgive myself for not loving the human parts of me. I forgive myself for giving unconditional love to so many others and not to myself. I forgive myself for being distracted by my own pain for so long. I forgive the world for mirroring those beliefs back to me. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free. I forgive and I set myself free.

Anonymous
San Francisco, CA

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Forgiveness Letter

i forgive you for making a bet about my innocence and for trying to destroy it.

i forgive you for equating me and the people i love with pedophiles and zoophiles. i
forgive you for being so controlling and manipulative with your children, your wife,
and with me. i forgive you for taking me in relatively whole and sending me home
broken. i forgive you for the stress and anxiety as i worked through what i lived
through last year. i forgive you for the harm you do to people i love and to me. but
i forgive myself for letting you. i forgive myself for acquiescing in the name of new
cultural experiences. i forgive myself for thinking it was because of my queerness
that it felt as bad as it was. i forgive myself for being unable to fix it for the next
volunteer. i forgive myself for not being able to protect myself and leave.

i forgive you for not understanding. i forgive myself for the frustration of explaining
queer. i forgive myself for not keeping connected. i forgive myself for feeling guilty
when i needed time to renew.

i forgive you for believing that i can only be passionate about my queerness. i
forgive you for not hearing or listening to me. i forgive myself for not finding a way
to be heard.

i forgive you for tearing apart my church. i forgive you for driving away the best
connection i have to my home congregation. i forgive you for not living up to your
call and ordination. i forgive you for impeding the hearing of the gospel. i forgive
myself for not speaking up in time. i forgive myself for not knowing what to do or
how best to do it.

i forgive you for getting divorced.

i forgive you for resigning and not telling me.

i forgive myself for not loving myself as god's beloved child. i forgive myself for the
guilt i feel because of how, where, when and to whom i was born.

i forgive so that now i can live into genuine relationship with those around me.
i forgive so that i can pursue intentionality in life and love.
i forgive so that my walls can begin to come down.
i forgive so that i might know others more deeply.
i forgive so that i can have the freedom to be me, whoever that is, 100%


emily e. ewing
Chicago, IL

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

I forgive you letter

Maya Angelou said, "you do what you can, until you know better."

I forgive myself for not knowing better sooner. I let go of the sense that I ought to have done more in situations where it was perfectly normal to just be a kid, to be afraid or to simply be human. I cherish the fact that I now have a voice and life that is strong enough to not only protect myself, but to speak out for others - particularly those thought to be the most vulnerable.

I forgive the angry men and women in my life who have created a sense in me that chaos is manageable and that I must carry more than is mine to carry. I understand now the systems of violence and generations of baggage that you are carrying. I do my best to not take yours on as my own and forgive myself when I walk the rutted roads of my ancestors that lead only to fear and shame.

I release myself from the useless debates in my brain that think: humility is opposed to achieving my dreams; trivial actions and speech are correlated to the amount of love I experience from the world and loved ones; about what life would be like without my disabilities; and the ways in which I have stumbled the past.

I resolve to do what I can, until I know better.

I forgive you and I am forgiven.


Megan Rohrer
San Francisco, CA

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Forgiveness Letter

I forgive myself for the many times in which I was not able to arrive strongly by my side as my own best friend. I forgive myself for the times when I badly needed support and when I received no help from others, I scrutinized and judged myself instead of accepting and being with myself. I recognize that it is more challenging to love oneself than others at times. In recognizing this and forgiving myself for not being able to self-actualize and advocate, I am letting it go. I recognize that I have learned much in a few years, and it is no longer constructive to carry around the weight of these past hurts. In setting down the bag of these hurts I am individuating from a state of victimization to a state of empowerment.

Anonymous
Oakland, CA

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Call for Letters: April 16th Event

We want you to write letters about what your life would look like if you forgave yourself and others. Then, you can either bring them in person to the Hayes Valley Farm (Fell/Laguna), Free Farm (Eddy/Gough) or Growing Home Community Garden (Octavia/Lily) on April 16th for the SF Refresh event or you can email them to weforgiveyou@gmail.com.

If you email your letter, please let us know if we can post them on the blog (with our without your first name). If you put *confidential* in the memo line, we won't read your letter. We'll simply print it, ensure no part of your letter is visible to others and give it an identification code that we'll send back to you so you can follow what happens to your letter on the blog.

On April 16th we'll be transforming the letters into pots for seedlings that will then be planted into the earth and will eventually compost into the soil. Then, we'll regularly post photos here for you to watch your intentions literally grow.

You're words don't have to be beautiful, mean anything to other people or even be seen by others. The whole point is for you to physically put your intention into the world and have the experience of seeing it physically transform.

Thank you for being a part of this project with us.

We hope you are well!